Browsing Archive: January, 2012

I'm Not Dead Yet

Posted by Marcia Carole on Monday, January 30, 2012,
 
Rose Watercolor, in process, Marcia Carole


It's Monday so it is chemo day for a few of us in the neighborhood, including me. As I head into my next time into the poison prison, I think back to last Wednesday. This past week, the pain became so intense that on Wednesday night, I thought to myself, "You really are going to die, Marcia. All this business about "beating cancer", miracles, is not happening for you." You might think, well, that was the Devil having fun with my mind, but I actually ...
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My Work Week

Posted by Marcia Carole on Saturday, January 28, 2012,
 
Evening Pears, Watercolor, Marcia Carole 

It has been quite the "work" week, even though I don't have employment beyond fighting cancer. However, this fight is definitely a job. One needs a full range of skills for this particular vocation - patience, endurance, courage, perseverence, a strong body (????), thoughtful mind(if possible), nurtured soul, filled spirit and deep trust in a loving Heavenly Father. Unlike my teaching vocation, I've seen it's best to keep my mouth shut these harder we...

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Sorrow comes In and Parks

Posted by Marcia Carole on Wednesday, January 25, 2012,


When I was in Nicaragua for a couple of months, living and working in the little town of Los Cedros, I helped some women share their stories through art. One woman, seen above, shared some of her story in the three panels you see. Life was good at the beginning of her story, then, she had serious loss as a child, represented by the butterfly in the second panel. She ended up in a situation/relationship where she felt totally trapped, emprisoned, as seen in the third panel. 


Lately, I've been f...

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Chemo Running Amuck

Posted by Marcia Carole on Monday, January 23, 2012,


An artist friend of mine who has greatly helped shape the direction of my art, story and faith work is a gifted, kind and generous woman named Marge. Yesterday, she "sent" me a collage of her interpretation of the firey furnace from the book of Job, chapter 23. Her collage inspired me to try my own, which you see above. I have reworked the final piece a bit, cut the gold bits down just a little, but you get the idea, I hope. Lots of painted papers, no photography.

Today is a chemo day for me, ...

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He Whispers To Me

Posted by Marcia Carole on Sunday, January 22, 2012,


Today, I'm thinking fighting cancer is similar to a very, hard, muddy marathon. This "race" of cancer is going to take time. My time. Day after day. I think others have gotten this idea much faster than I. The reality that I can't drive while on chemo, can't even think about a trip sharing art and faith, can't do so many "normal" things each day, has hit me a little more deeply today. I'm sad. I am fighting crabbiness again. 

Alice is being so kind and helpful; however, I get frustrated, ie: I...

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Deep Waters - Job Chapter 1 and 2

Posted by Marcia Carole on Wednesday, January 18, 2012,


The next round of chemo began Monday, and so far, I've had mostly good hours and a first night of very good sleep. I continue to be thankful I do not have nausea, and have the luxury of staying at home, resting, painting, walking and reading during this time. My life friend, Alice, has arrived, giving me her full, loving attention. We enjoy good organic foods and soups, veggie smoothies and lots of snow outside. She, being a nurse, takes my pulse during heart palpitations, and asks how I am d...
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Lovely Vacation From Chemo

Posted by Marcia Carole on Sunday, January 15, 2012,


I have had a week and a half off from chemo; my body is happy. I have really enjoyed my returned strength these past few days. I have walked 3.1 miles several days in a row this week. Some of the walking was uphill, and all with dear sister friends. I have even cooked and cleaned a little - without totally feeling like passing out. The vacation ends Monday, but I am thankful for each chemo-free day!

In honor of my chemo vacation, I have returned to a watercolor I began one year, when I gave my...

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Hope

Posted by Marcia Carole on Thursday, January 12, 2012,


 "Blessings are not safe for you to have until you are willing to serve God even without them. Otherwise, they will become pseudo-gods, ways of salvation, things you put your hope in instead of God" - Tim Keller


I've been settling into my cozy home in Seattle since leaving Salt Lake City. Many friends have helped with this transition, and I often find myself overcome, weepy over their kindnesses. How can I really express my thankfulness? I have decided one thing I can do; I mention each of the...
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Home

Posted by Marcia Carole on Sunday, January 8, 2012,
 Original collage, Marcia Carole 
"The Woman with the Bleeding Problem Hears About Jesus"

I awoke this morning praying for the team of women, a team I was initially a part of, for using art to share our stories, who have gone to Nicaragua to minister to 300 women. It is a daunting task, but I am certain the ladies will do beautifully - in God's care, strength and for His purposes. They will be blessed by the people in the little town of Los Cedros as they spend time with the ladies. I am with t...
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Finishing Up In Salt Lake City

Posted by Marcia Carole on Friday, January 6, 2012,


Packing Day is fast upon me as I head home for Seattle. Saturday morning, I fly home. Home. What a nice word, such a comforting word. Having finished gluing down the parts of this last piece in response to Psalm 1, I am putting all the art supplies away. The art will be in my carry-on suitcase, along with the most treasured items I don't want to loose with a checked bag gone missing. I am thankful for all the time I have had to make art, even though I would not have chosen the path of cancer ...

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Deeply Rooted

Posted by Marcia Carole on Thursday, January 5, 2012,


While sipping on ginger beer, no, it's not alcoholic, I have been working on a collage for Psalm 1. Today, I have been slammed with the fatigue that comes with chemo. At one point, Judi, my sister-in-law found me curled up in a ball under a mound of blankets and pillows and asked if she could help. "Please turn off the light," I responded weakly. Thank you, Judy! So goes my morning after chemo. I woke up a bit crabby, and I was mad at myself for being crabby.

So, to distract myself from the le...

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Praise Him In The Downpour

Posted by Marcia Carole on Tuesday, January 3, 2012,


Though the fig tree does not bud
and there are no grapes on the vines,
though the olive crop fails
and the fields produce no food,
though there are no sheep in the pen
... and no cattle in the stalls,
Yet I will rejoice in the Lord, I will joy in the God of my salvation.
The Sovereign LORD is my strength;
He makes my feet like the feet of a deer,
He enables me to tread on the heights.
Habakkuk 3:17-19
 


This is my second version of making art in response to the above passage from the Old Testament. This ...

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Where Do My Loyalties Lie?

Posted by Marcia Carole on Monday, January 2, 2012,
  -Watercolor Sunflower by Marcia Carole

At 2:00 a.m. this morning, the searing pain in my head got my full attention, yet again. I'd tried to ignore it off and on for a couple of hours, fading in and out of sleep. Praying. Pleading. As I lay, sandwiching my head between two pillows, it struck me yet again on this cancer journey, "I am really, really, really not in charge of my life." God keeps waking me up, for some odd reason, to "help" me to internalize this lesson. Is that the only time He...
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I Will....Rejoice.

Posted by Marcia Carole on Sunday, January 1, 2012,


Though the fig tree does not bud
and there are no grapes on the vines,
though the olive crop fails
and the fields produce no food,
though there are no sheep in the pen
... and no cattle in the stalls,
Yet I will rejoice in the Lord, I will joy in the God of my salvation.
The Sovereign LORD is my strength;
He makes my feet like the feet of a deer,
He enables me to tread on the heights.
Habakkuk 3:17-19
 


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About Me


Marcia Carole It is my pleasure to help many to process their stories by using a variety of art forms. The art reaches non-verbal parts of the brain, where trauma is stored. Healing may take place through the art-making. By sharing our stories, we become known. Instead of running from our stories, we embrace them and see how God can redeem them and use them.
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